I have started, and deleted, so many blog posts in the last
two months. Endless streams of words
that I type, read, and delete. Over an
over again, I write a bunch of stuff, and then chuck it into the trash because
it’s just too negative to post.
Thanksgiving and Christmas have been exceptionally hard, for
the regular reasons, but also for the indescribable reasons. I can’t say why I am feeling so ungrateful,
but I am. I can’t say why (exactly) I
have so little patience, to little empathy, and so little optimism. But I do.
But, again, this is not who I (think) am. I am the person who seeks to right the
wrongs, to fight the good fight, and to make the world a better place. But. But.
So, with that being said, I’m going to be doing a side project
for the next month, and if it catches, keep doing it for a while. My project is this: force myself to be grateful for one thing
each day, and publically post that. I
can’t say that they will all be gloriously transcendent, or that even all of them
will make sense. But I’m going to force
myself to focus, at least once each day, to be grateful for one thing.
I’m going to take a picture of that one thing, or something
that represents that thing, and then cross post it to FB, Instagram
(@jasonstrzalkowski) and Twitter (@fossileyes).
If you want to comment, comment. If you want to like, like. If you want to ignore, ignore. But, I’m hoping that my empathy pool, my
utter belief in the goodness of humanity, and my connection to the larger
community out there will be redrawn, repaired, and renewed. If not that, as it’s a little high-minded, at
least I’ll have a project, and it will be amusing.
With that, my next post will be my first thankful moment. If you have a snazzy name for these things,
let me know. I’m running short of snaz
right now.
Hope all is well with all of you, and that you had a great
Christmas surrounded by those who love and care for you.
